Desires of My Heart

6 Jul

When I first found out that we were going to be able to make a home visit to Kara’s sponsor child (Delcia) in the Dominican Republic, I was so excited!  God began to give me a burden for the whole family.  I wanted to be able to communicate that God loves them very much, and that He wants to be personally involved in their lives.  Then little by little God began to give me the desires of my heart.

He reminded me that years ago (when I worked with international students at Portland State), the gift that the women treasured most from me was a simple cross-stitch which contained a verse from the Bible.  Kara and I readily agreed upon the verse “Let not your heart be troubled; trust in God, trust also in Me.”  John 14:1 which is a quote from Jesus.  Using Kara’s Spanish Bible we translated and designed a cross-stitch which read:  No se augustien.  Confíen en Dios, y confíen también en Mí.”  Juan 14:1   For some strange reason it was difficult for me to determine the predicted dimensions of the cross-stitch.  When we realized what the final dimensions of the cross-stitch would be, I was disheartened.  I knew that a 5 x 7 frame was too small, but was horrified to find out that an 8 x 10 frame was too large.  I believed that the Lord wanted me to make the cross-stitch, so I was confused why this one was so difficult.  I could not afford to have this project custom-framed, so I worried that the cross-stitch would not look very nice.  Gloomily I went shopping to find an 8 x 10 frame which would be “okay”.  I was absolutely astonished to find two stores which had an 8 x 8 frame.  I never saw an 8 x 8 frame in the stores before, nor did I even know that they existed!  However, the Lord knew.  And this year when I needed it, the Lord provided the perfect size frame!  I was simply overjoyed and my heart was full of thankfulness to the Lord.

It was not, however, until a few days before the trip that I began to understand what the Lord wanted me to learn.  In my devotional that morning I was again reminded of the verse that I had cross-stitched (John 14:1).  This time the Lord brought fuller meaning of the verse to me and taught me that this verse was for me also!  You see, I always worry.  I worry so much,  I even worry if my cross-stitch has the right frame!  God just wants me to trust Him with every little detail of my life.  He cares for each of us and always provides what we need.  This was exactly what I wanted to communicate to Delcia’s family, and now God had given me a story to help them understand.

The afternoon of the home visit finally came.  I was very nervous, not knowing how we would be received by the family.  Inside the home, I started thinking thoughts like:  “Perhaps I shouldn’t tell her the story of the frame.  She will think that it is a silly story.  She won’t want to hear the story.  She will think that it is not important.  She has greater worries than that.  My story is so trivial.”  However, the Lord provided the perfect translator.  His name was Marcel; he was very easy to understand and had no problem understanding me.  His calm character actually calmed my heart throughout the whole visit.  Delcia opened all of her gifts first.  Then her mom Maria opened the gifts for the whole family.  The last gift that she unwrapped was the cross-stitch.  By this time I was greatly encouraged by her smile when she opened the other gifts, and the Lord had calmed my fears.  I began to tell Maria that this was one of my favorite verses, and that this gift had a story.  After I told her the story, I was amazed.  She started to choke up and cry.  She said that she needed this; that when she prayed, God answered; and that this was an answer to prayer.  We hugged each other and I reiterated, “Yes, that is exactly who God is and what He does.  God loves you very much.  And He wants to be involved in every detail of your life.”

It is amazing how God works to help people understand how much He loves them.  I was twice blessed in helping a woman I just met with understanding the love of Christ, as well as, in being reminded once again how much God loves me and how he can use any one of us to fulfill His purposes.  Truly God gave me the desires of my heart on this short trip to the Dominican Republic.  I want to thank all of you who prayed for me and our team.  We could not have accomplished as much as we did without your prayers.  Thanks for partnering with our team to minister to the people in the Dominican Republic.

One Response to “Desires of My Heart”

  1. Mari July 6, 2012 at 3:00 am #

    Thank you, Donella, for the reminder that God cares not only about the big stuff, but also about every detail of our lives. I am so thankful that God allowed me to share this trip with you!

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